I wanted to take this time to write to you because I feel perhaps you may need a little assistance locating me. It seems to me, dear Love, that you have forgotten where I live. Wait! As a matter of fact it appears you've never know. I understand that there are over seven billion of us in the world and that you have a great deal of work to do but I would really like for you to come my way. Its just ; I've been waiting for years now and I keep hearing people talk about you so I have become rather anxious to meet you.
I know you may be a little perplexed thinking that you have revealed yourself to me in several forms. That you have manifested through family and friends. That you live with me making sure that I want for nothing. That you even shine through me so people see you when they look at me. Well, dear Love, that is not the version of you that I am talking about. I need to see the version of you that manifests through a man. I know you exist in that form because human folks talk about you a lot.
I am told that you are able to fill a man's heart so that he has genuine care and appreciation for a woman. That in your presence a man is able to lead and protect. That he can become a really great friend, companion, provider, teacher, lover and even light bulb changer? Is this true? Is it true that when you fill a man 's heart he can take a woman' car to the wash? He can hold her hand and walk with her? Can you really do this? I am afraid I've only read and heard about you in this form. I know no such !
I live in that place, dear Love, where even you fear to tread . I live in that place where its okay for a man who has been in my life to wake up one day and stop talking to me forever. You know that place, where after receiving a Valentine's gift I am given a lecture about being a gold digger? And yes I had a gift for him too just in case you were wondering. I live in that place where my thoughts are 'too much' and my independence 'too threatening'. Yes, that is where I live. Where even you are frowned upon. Where the mere mention of your name is considered a weakness. If I am to believe you exist I will need to meet you soon.
Do you think it may be okay if you took a trip my way? As you take your trip around the world pairing the girls and boys please take a moment to consider me. I'll be the one waiting ,patiently as I always have. But still...I can't wait to meet you. I really hope you will come.
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| I smile always...hoping, that soon you will come my way! |
Sincerely Yours
Mashadi
